I Am the Heart
the fruit of my
contemplations
Introduction
In the course of my ongoing search for understandings of Life, love and God,
many great things have come my way to assist me with my desire to learn. The
most significant of these is the presence of my spiritual master whose
teachings are now deeply entrenched into my everyday life. The timing of this
event, I see as no accident, as I was now ready for the next important phase of
my spiritual evolution.
Incorporated into this next phase was an occurrence of an event that has
happened to me once to often. Resolved to never let it happen again, I threw
myself deeply into contemplation and self-discovery. By the guidance of
spiritual wisdom, traditions and teachings, as well as instructions in
meditation, old and dark memories began to come to light. Understandings of
myself and life’s complexities would filter into my consciousness and
grant me a power to overcome my hidden fears and ignorances.
Of the most important of these understandings, was the awakening to the
cause of a cyclic problem with personal relationships; that being, ‘my
weakness in communicating’. For so long, I have known that I was a
day-dreamer. For so long, I have known that my attention would just slip away
as smoothly as honey, and lure me imperceptibly out of the moment. Yet, I had
no idea of the destructive limitation. So often I would be engaged in
conversation and have a mountain of ideas and information to contribute, but
somehow only a pittance of my thoughts would ever become verbalised. I was then
naturally seen by others as having very little to contribute as an individual,
or as a partner.
In writing this text, I have borrowed a style so widely and beautifully
used in much of India’s classic literature. True to the process that I
went through, I have separated the Mind and the Heart as entities in their own
right engaged in mutual conversation. Though it is the goal of each person to
become united with themselves, this separation is in fact done with a deep
feeling of love and compassion, making the literal separation a very powerful
union of communication in the most intimate sense.
Now I have greater understandings of my own nature as well as that of
others. From this I am well and truly on the way to obtaining, living and
maintaining a good and happy life. Grace and knowledge have liberated me from a
sea of limitations and ignorance, and love has allowed me to be still that it
might settle within me. Freedom and peace shall be the attributes that will
guide me forward in life, and listening to the Heart for the silent truth will
be my protector.
Adrian Newington
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